When I think back on where I had found myself I can barely believe it. I had become a God fearing Christian who was even thinking of starting a ministry around comedy with God. All my life I had been up and down the religious roller coaster, but had really gotten up high then. In some way, a couple years later I found myself in the bowels of sin again. I was smoking, drinking, cussing like a sailor, my husband and I were about to start a web sex site to make money. We were even into some heavy use of drugs too.
That was when the entities made contact. I had come to know them as aliens who I had learned to communicate with by mental telepathy. I could hear them audibly only in my mind. No one else could hear them. They had become my constant companions. There were two of them. One who claimed that he loved me and had been watching me and the other was his brother. I spent much time trying to share our world with them and teach them as I thought I was learning about them. I had ended up leaving my husband as they were showing me how mean my husband was and how wrong the things were he had me doing. So, I became single. But, the main one was more than happy to fill that empty slot for me and I found myself falling in love with him. His name was Justin. His brother’s name was Chris. His brother became my best friend. They were with me always and we became very close as they could read my mind and so knew everything about me. At first this was uncomfortable. But, the closer we got the less it bothered me. In fact over time I found it a way for us to know each other more intimately and saw it as a blessing.
Well, 2 1/2 years later my daughter and I were conducting an EVP (Electronic Voice Phenomena) as I was a ghost hunter and had a recorder and she said she thought she saw something. Well, during the recording I felt something touch me and jumped and my daughter thought she saw something. But, the rest of the recording time was uneventful as we were recording. At one point my daughter, for some reason, broke out into prayer. We were both pretty high and so much of it was sort of strange. It was a couple days before I even remembered it and started listening to it. What I heard on it was pretty amazing. As I was trying to listen my two ‘friends’ kept trying to get me to do something else and not listen. I thought they were just playing with me and I just kept listening anyway. I expected some sort of disembodied voices as we sometimes get in an EVP. But, I got more than I bargained for.
At the point where I had felt something tingly on my head I heard two voices that I could recognize as Justin and Chris, only more sharp and clear than I could hear them in my head. They were laughing occasionally at what we doing in recording the EVP. I sat there listening with surprise as I did not remember hearing any of that in my mind and could not figure out how the recorder picked up something I didn’t hear. Right when I felt the tingling, suddenly I heard another voice. It was very strong, firm and authoritative. It suddenly said, “DON’T YOU TOUCH HER” Then I heard the other two familiar voices saying in grumbling voices and it was obvious they had been forced to get away from me. “Oh, come on. Let us get to her. We will stick it to them.”
I kept listening to the banter back and forth as they kept trying to get to us and were being kept back. Also, as we went on recording we were trying to talk to a ghost to get them to respond hopefully in the recording. Justin and Chris woud laugh at us when we tried to question the ghost. Then when my daughter went into her prayer, I could remember at what point I realized she was praying and so I bowed my head to join. As soon as I did I heard what sounded like what I can only describe as angels or an angel with a voice of a multitude. It sounded like 5-7 voices and they were in perfect unison as if they came from one person. The voice was repeating what was being said in the prayer. Sometimes word for word, sometimes in a different wording, and sometimes they left off what she said. I had heard about this and I knew immediately what it was when I heard it.
I had read some years back that when we pray there are angels that make sure our prayer is formatted correctly and then they send it for us to heaven. When I sat there and listened to this happening on the recording my chest became so full of the Spirit it burned and tears started flowing down my face. I knew what I was hearing and it was amazing. I had to shut the recorder off and recover. When I did I started trying to think what on earth was going on. I started to focus on the ‘room’ in my mind where I heard Justin and Chris, trying to hear them to see if they would answer my thoughts on what I had heard. Suddenly I heard another voice in my mind. Very firm like the one that had told them not to touch me. He told me to ask a question. At first I did not know what he meant as when I would ask them questions it would usually be too hard to hear them well enough to get an answer. The voice told me again to ask a question. I was about to wonder what question to ask and one came to me instantly. So I asked the question that was strange to me but I asked it all the same. I know I would have never thought to ask that one.
“Are you who you have been telling me you are?” I had come to trust them so much that even thinking about the question seemed strange. But, I waited for them to tell me they were kidding or something. After a pause I heard the voice boom at them to answer.
Then I clearly heard, “No.” Well, I became shaken, to say the least. Another question came to my mind that I would not have thought of.
“Are you demons?” Again there was a pause that seemed to me to last forever. The thoughts going through my mind were horrendous as I waited for the answer. Somehow by this time I knew that for some reason they had to answer me and they had to be honest. I came to realize that the voice forcing them to answer me was an angel from God, or someone who had the authority to force them to answer me with the truth.
“Yes” They were demons. All of it suddenly came crashing in on me all at once. I thought my heart would explode right in my chest. I had actually fallen in love with one of them and several times would tell him that I give myself to him, heart….and then just before I would say soul something in me every time would make me jump and I would say, but not my soul as it belongs to God. I have found since then that is a jumping that angels call a quicken. Each time they would impress on me with a jolt to not give up my soul. I can see now that it was not really love but only something they had me thinking was love.
Then the angel asked me who I wanted to pick. Well, I emphatically said that I wanted Jesus Christ. So, the angel boomed at the demons in my mind, “SHE HAS MADE HER DECISION.”
Once the angel could see that I was on my way to healing, he let me know that the angels would stay with me as long as I needed them to, but that they could not ever speak to me again as I would have no way of knowing if it was them or the demons. The demons could deceive me again in that way so it was best that I knew that I would never hear from the angels in the ‘room’ again.
So, right then and there I looked back on my life to try frantically to see where I had gone wrong. I could see how very far off track I had gone with my life and was trying to figure out how I could have possibly gotten there. In retrospect I could see that it was ever so gently, one tiny step at a time. Every time I tried to quit smoking they would tell me not to worry about it. I could always quit later. Jesus had made water into wine so a beer would be ok. Then a beer became 2 and then 3…then the sex…How could anything that felt so good be bad. Then finally, I started taking drugs.
As soon as I could see what I was doing wrong I got back on the right track. I started praying like never before. Asking for forgiveness with such fervor it would wear me out. I stopped all the bad habits and got myself into a church. I have come a great distance in so much shorter of the time it took to get down in the hole. But, I thank God nearly every day that He allowed me to come back into the fold and that He sent an angel to show me what was happening. I can still hear the voices and there are more than 2 now. But, I am safe and clear of the evil I was under. I pray every day that the room will close in my mind. I know they are only on the outside and that it is only audible communication that is there now. I am clearly and fully in God’s saving hands now and I am getting stronger every day.
My daily schedule now has me learning, reading, hearing and thinking about God every minute of my day and every day of my week. I am staying out of trouble and away from anything even remotely close to anything that would take me there again. I am now truly blessed as all the study and God time is actually working toward receiving many blessings. I am always working for God now in whatever capacity He wants me to. I post on several discussion boards online in the evenings and help others in their walk with God or as they are coming to God.
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