I was raised in the Baptist Church and I was saved and baptized in 1973, at the age of 11. I can honestly say that I have always had strong unquestioning faith. I have never doubted the Word of God or the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.
At a early age I went through so many terrible things. My very first memory is of being molested and violated at around 4 or 5 years old. I don’t know the exact age. And I don’t know who it was that did that to me. But as I was growing up it seemed like I was a nothing more than a huge target for sexual abuse. Cousins, uncles, neighbors and so-called friends, sexually abused and emotionally hurt me beyond what anyone ever should be.
I believe my father was the only male in my life that didn’t abuse me. And going through so many cruel life lessons I turned from obedience to God and caved into the way of the world. I learned how to turn off my feelings and become some what robotic.
I started to rebel against everything and I went full force into a life of drug abuse to ease my pain. Between the physical pain, the sexual abuse and the emotional instability I fell for the overwhelming misconception, that so many woman fall into, that sex equals love. I went from boyfriend to boyfriend searching for love. Wanting to be liked. Hoping to find someone that would love me. Only to earn a ferocious reputation for myself. You name it, I’ve probably done it. This is part of my life that I am truly ashamed of.
My life was full of foolish and spiritually ignorant behavior. At an young age I felt abandoned and forsaken by God and it took me decades to understand but I have finally realized that if you never go through anything you never know the beauty of rescue. If you haven’t had a troublesome life, you have no awesome testimony.
On May 15th, 2010, I hit rock bottom with the terrible health problems, 3 cancer scares, an addiction to prescription, narcotic pain killers and nerve medications and the sincere dread in my heart for my eternal soul.
I humbled myself complete before Almighty God and fell to my knees and called on my Savior, Jesus Christ with utmost repentance and an utterly true heart-filled love of God. I begged for redemption. And the Lord forgive me, completely, unconditionally. He lifted me up in His powerful ability to love and His abundant mercy. He has given the extraordinary peace and unbelievable joy I have always desired. And through the amazing grace of God Almighty I came through it to find that God had never left me. He was right there with me through it all. I praise His Holy name for seeing my heart, my love and my faith were very real even thou my actions said differently.
I am such a different person now. The old IS passed away and I have been made new. The Lord took away all my physical pain from several illnesses I had. He took all desire to abuse drugs from me. He took away all my anger toward people. He gave me the wisdom to pray in all situations. He made me whole. He made my life complete. He filled me with the passion of His presence. The Lord Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior.
There isn’t anything I won’t do for God. He is my everything. I am truly a work in progress. The Lord changes my life a little each and everyday. If God loves someone like me enough to bestow miracles and uncompromising glory in my life. He loves you enough to change you and honor Himself in your life.
I search everyday for ways to tell people about how awesome my God is. How the Lord can change every single aspect of your life. How everything truly is possible with God. I want everyone to know that through Jesus Christ, nothing is hopeless, nothing is impossible. God can totally change your life if you just accept Him, obey Him, truly love Him with all you have and allow Him to take charge of your life.
The power of Almighty God is incomprehensible. I hope my words influence the life of someone that is searching for answers. God is the answer to all your problems. There isn’t anything that He can’t handle in your life. If you have faith and you trust in the Lord, if you give yourself wholeheartedly to Him, miracles can happen. Jesus is so wonderfully kind, so amazingly gentle, so overwhelmingly precious in every sense of the words. I can’t worship and praise the Lord enough.
He has delivered me from myself. Is there anyone out there that is seeking a new way of life? Are you looking for a better way? Are you drowning in abuse or addiction? God is the answer!
What I am about to tell you happened several years ago and I haven’t shared this with anyone, not even my husband. But I have the burden on my heart, this is the anointed time, to tell you now. I had a dream, while I was still swallowed up in sin and disobedience.
It was years before I took heed as to what I saw but praise God for His mercy and loving kindness, I did not lose my life before I repented for my sins and rededicated my life to the Lord. The dream seemed to be over as quickly as it came to me. And in this dream, I saw the amazing glory of the second coming of the Lord Jesus Christ. It was so powerful, so utterly awesome. There are no words to describe exactly what I experienced. Our human minds simply can’t comprehend what is to come. The art work of this world is less than a drop in the bucket as to the beauty and majesty of the second coming. I never saw the Lord’s face. I never saw the faces of the multitudes of angels surrounding Him. I only saw the glory, the majesty of Him.
It happened just like the Bible describes. In the sky, instantly. (1 Corinthians 15:52 In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. Revelation 22:20 He which testifieth these things saith , Surely I come quickly. Amen. Even so, come , Lord Jesus. Revelation 1:7 Behold , he cometh with clouds; and every eye shall see him, and they also which pierced him: and all kindreds of the earth shall wail because of him. Even so, Amen.) At that moment fear overtook every inch of my being. I wasn’t singing. I wasn’t excited. I wasn’t just looking in awe at the Lord but instantly I fell to my knees and began to wail in despair and I cried uncontrollably and screamed out begging for mercy. When I woke up, I was covered in sweat and crying like a baby. For years I have ignored the dream thinking it was only a dream. But the memories of the dream, the vision (call it what you may) has never left me. I think about it daily and it is as vivid as the day I had it.
Then about a month ago. This dream came upon me again. If this dream was in someway a sign, a vision. WOW ! We are in for such a big surprise. This world is not prepared for what is to come. People have put God in a box. No box can hold the Lord. The overwhelming power of His presence will be more than most people will be able to take.
I am praying constantly for the lost. The second coming is NOT going to be gentle on the lost! (Psalm 58:10 The righteous shall rejoice when he seeth the vengeance: he shall wash his feet in the blood of the wicked. Romans 12:19 Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. Hebrews 10:30 For we know him that hath said, Vengeance belongeth unto me, I will recompense, saith the Lord. And again, The Lord shall judge his people.) I pray constantly for those that have lost their way. For the people that have not found their salvation in Jesus Christ. I pray that everyone will seek the grace of God before it is too late! (Revelation1:18 I am he that liveth , and was dead; and, behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death. Revelation 20:13 And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works.)
I just want people to know the time of the Lord is near. God is so good. I don’t want anyone to miss out of the power, the mercy, and the love of the Jesus Christ.
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