After my mother died on May 18,1995, I was angry at God and decided my way was better than God’s way. I needed to find myself, so I moved from Texas to Colorado in 2001.
While I was there, I was homeless for a short period of time. During that vulnerable period, I fell in love with a drug dealer. After spending time with him, I started using drugs myself.
After I found out he was cheating on me, I broke up with him and started hanging out with girlfriends that were not a good influence on me. I went out drinking with them almost every night of the week. Most of us could out-drink men!
This destructive lifestyle went on for years. Partying, partying and MORE partying was the theme of my life; it became all I cared about. It got so bad for me that I even slept with men for money, (and even started experimenting in alternative lifestyles). I literally did NOT care about myself in any form or fashion. Although from the outside it looked like I was the life of the party, inside I felt like I was dying.
I met my daughter’s dad online. After dating for only 4 months, I found out I was pregnant. His lifestyle was not healthy for me to be around, so I decided to move back home to Texas to take care of my eighty year old godfather. Ironically, that move also brought me closer to God himself. As I searched for God more, He helped me turn my life around.
God has totally CHANGED my life. I know I am forgiven. I REALLY am a brand new creature! I have a purpose now. I am blessed.
I do not regret my past, but when I think of it, it is almost like looking at it from a rear view mirror!
God is my ONE desire and I can never thank Him enough for bringing me out of the destructive path that I was on in life. I know I have favor and He has a hedge of protection around me and my family and the people I love!
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