“Dear Heavenly Father,
I come to you with a heavy heart. As you already know, I have been cutting myself to deal with the emotional pain I am having a hard time confronting and dealing with. I know that it is wrong, and I want to stop. I have tried to many times in the past, but it seems the harder I try, the more I do the very thing I want to stop. Help me.
In your word, it says that I must get dressed in the spirit to properly protect myself. I am putting on the armor of God that has been provided for me since the day I asked Jesus into my heart. I am putting on my shoes of peace, my belt of truth, my breastplate of righteousness, my helmet of salvation, my shield of faith and my sword of the spirit (which is the word of God). I know that my defensive weapon is the word of God and I will speak the word of God when I am under attack.
Lord, I promise to seek help from a medical doctor, counseling or church group. I know that there are plenty of resources that are free and available for me to reach out and get the help I need. I am asking for you to help me give up my shame and embarrassment. There is no shame in getting the help I need, and fighting this alone is not working. With you, the word of God and the professional guidance I need, I can do anything.
I am asking that you protect my tender heart from the issues I have been so scared to face. I know that is why I have put off talking to anyone and getting the help I need. I need to be truthful to get to the root of this damage I am inflicting on myself. I am so afraid of the pain that I keep putting it off. Lord, can you hold my hand, and walk me through the dark places I may need to go through? I know that you will never let me go to a place that I cannot handle, and I ask that you cover my heart with your love and protection as being this vulnerable is excruciatingly hard for me.
I cannot go on like this any longer. I am choosing to do things a different way today. I am choosing to let the light of God’s word show me how worthy I really am, and I am making the choice to believe what God says about me. I will not let my own thoughts, my past history, or any other human being tell me what my value and worth is.
In the name of Jesus I stand against the enemy that is trying to steal my life and suck the joy and life out of me. I bind the spirit of depression, suicide, fear, insecurity, body-dysmorphia, lust, sexual abuse, mental abuse, homosexuality, abortion, bulima, self-mutilation, addiction, secrets, confusion, death, obsession with death, romanticism and fantasy to the spirit of balack. There is nothing noble or romantic or heroic about destroying the body that I was given by God.
I ask that the blood of Jesus cover my emotions until my healing is totally complete. I am the Lord’s and I am marked by God. Any spirit that will try and attack me will see the blood of Jesus and know that he has to reckon with my savior, not me.
I will submit to the word of God and allow the healing and instruction to penetrate my head and my heart and nourish my hurting soul back to wholeness. I will be whole, healed and complete because I was bought with the blood of Christ and He died so I did not have to suffer. This suffering ends right now in Jesus’ name.
Thank you, Lord for hiding me under the secret place of the most high, under the shadow of your Almighty wings. Thank you, Lord for all you are and for helping me through this temporary trial. In Jesus’ name, I love you. Amen.”
Author: Julia Shalom Jordan
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