“Dear Heavenly Father,
I have made a mistake and realize that now. I have made the choice to end the life that you were creating inside my womb. This miracle came at a time when I felt overwhelmed with so many issues and problems.
I treated your miracle as one of those problems that needed to be “solved”. Since doing this, I have felt a sadness in my heart that words cannot describe. I feel empty, lost and I know now that in my moment of confusion, I made the wrong choice.
Lord, it is so hard when I realize the scope and magnitude of what I have done for me to forgive myself. I wish I could take back my choice and I know that the world will never know the wonderful life that was starting to grow in my belly.
I am more than sorry, Lord. I am grieved at what I have done. I ask for your forgiveness, and I receive it. I need your love to heal the wounds on my heart that I have created for myself. Comfort me and cover my loss with your presence.
Take what I did, and create a situation where I can grow and help others deal with the pain I am currently feeling right now.
In this pain, I realize what really matters now. I took the precious blessings I had lightly and for granted, and now that it is gone, I realize what a gift I had at my disposal. Forgive me for disposing them.
More than anything else, I need to forgive myself. I do not see this happening, but with you, anything is possible. I do not want to waste my life wallowing in regret over things I cannot change.
Help me to move beyond this and build a life that is richer from my experience and wiser from leaning on you for guidance. I did not listen to your warnings and I do not want to do that again.
Thank you for restoring what I destroyed. Thank you for forgiving me and rebuilding a stronger, smarter, more empathetic person from all of this. In Jesus’ precious name, Amen.”
Author: Julia Shalom Jordan
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